FRUSTRATION (About job searching)

Watch this very touching clip! Hope this one is working!


This is much harder than I thought. I mean to find that other –main- care taking job (personal assistant), added to this current side (care taker) job (which I now do to my family friend as I told you). I have been searching and searching (mainly city employment-to private person). I just don’t get anything even I’m very experienced. I have made this job over 10 years. I have had many kind of customers. I can handle wheelchair. I can cook basic homefood. I’m good listener. I feel like I would have so much to give someone. 

Well, partly I haven’t found anything because of the time tables (don’t mach) or they do have too little working hours or some of them (men) is looking for a male care taker or something like that but I also have sent some applications. 


I haven’t usually even got to interview (except via that firm where I worked a short time but that lady who’s care taker I was, was sent to the hospital). Once when I did got to interview, that man who were seeking care taker (or he should have) he actually were (also) seeking a lover. I felt really uncomfortable after he admitted that. He was older man, what was he thinking. If he’s looking for a lover he’s looking from a wrong way. Of course that job I could get if I would want it but I definately didn’t. 

The last case was also ”interesting”. We did make an agreement for interview to upcoming Tuesday. I suggested a time to see with e-mail (we didn’t agreed it at phone. I wanted to make sure the right time). He didn’t answer me at all!! Ok, I got it, he got someone already (I know he had many interviews on that week we speaked). Why didn’t he just tell me. ”I’m sorry, I got someone already”. He could easily send a message and say that and he should do that but he didn’t. 

Then before that last boy I called to one lady who was talking to another conversation so the line was taken. I sent a message to her and said I was interested of the job she offered. She didn’t call me back and neither answered to my message. I guess she have also got someone (probably that one with who she was speaking when I called her). Again, she could answer something to me or is it too much to ask to respect atleast that much someone who’s interested to work to you that you answer something.

Also I’m confused that I haven’t got any answers to my job application e-mails I sent (except that last boy who didn’t confirm the interview time.) I’m starting to think that I do something wrong but I don’t know what could it be. I personally think I write well so it can’t be that. 


Anyway, that’s my life. I always ”got the bone” like it’s said (atleast in Finland). (=Not very good luck). Sometimes I feel like Miranda at Sex and the City, when she said: ”Hello, am I invisible”. I’m so tired of being ”invisible”. I can’t take it anymore… I don’t know, maybe I got my first long-term care taker place too easily. It made me believe that I can get new place as easily (especially now when I have so long experience.) Maybe this was lesson to me. Don’t assume anything or take anything for granted! I definately don’t anymore! That’s for sure!

That song below have great lyrics. This came in to my mind yesterday when I was memorizing ”A” (lady I took care in long term and died last winter). As some of you might know she was not only my employer but also my friend and I miss all the fun things we did together. That song reminds of her. It’s really beautiful and touching!


You must watch these videos! These are so touching! There is for example incredible dog who tries to help fish which are ended up on soil. Also there is dogs who’s missing their owners and it’s almost like some of those was crying. Some of dogs are just lost their owner (or close friend) and their standing beside him being nervous. I was totally broken while watching these!


My family friends brothers lovely house! I would also love to have own house with own garden and own sauna like they have!

At sunday I was at work…at birthday party. Yes, you did read right! It really was my work day at birthdays. I was there for my paralyzed family friend at her brothers birthdayparty, (in his family home, near Porvoo town). I’m this girls new care taker. 

It was just perfect, warm and mostly sunny day. Most of guests I had met before and they were all warm and easy to talk with (those too who I wasn’t met)! 

Delicious salad!

Delicious raspberry-strawberry cake with real fresh berries! This was so yammy!

We were eating at family’s lovely garden (different kinds of delicious food; salmon, chicken, halloumi and salads). Then when we had drink our desert coffees and ate very delicious berry cake, the sun went (suitably) away. It had gave us our party dinner moment. So we moved inside. Perfectly timing!

That was lovely day!

Birthday family’s cute cat! That’s what I also would love to have but my man wouldn’t take a cat.

Beautiful flowers at garden!

By the way, this job was ment to be my side job but the job which should be my main job ended already. (Or not totally ended I am still their worker but) the lady I were hired to take care was sent to the hospital after few days. Again I hadn’t job. Or practically I had a job but I hadn’t any tasks to do. Quite ironic, right! They said they’ll get me a new place but they hadn’t still call me. So it was great I got even this job! So now I have something. Working hours are only about 10-15 per week but it’s better than nothing! Now I’m looking for a new main job.

 These following pictures are all taken at birthday party in the garden. Beautiful views and beautiful flowers!

Still one song at the end of this post. Do you remember this? This one suites here quite perfectly!


I was gonna write this important topic already on saturday, but I just haven’t the energy to write. So I write now, maybe a little bit late but as they say: ”better late than never”.

There have been again new terrorist attacks in Europe. These news really intimidate and frighten me! Now right after Spain, Finland got also the first attack, (stabbing attack, where two died and eight wounded.) Any of European countrys aren’t save anymore, even Finland. We will got more attacks around Europe, that’s for sure and thats what I’m afraid of! When will they come to Helsinki. Who knows. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week.

Everything is changed. I used to enjoy to walk in Helsinki streets, even in the silence of night. That was relaxing! I also often walked home from the bar at weekends when I was living at Helsinki city. (about 15-20 min.walk). I don’t feel save there anymore. 

My biggest sympathy goes to the families of victims in Spain and in Turku! Turku, our charming former capital, you are specially in my mind!


This is what happened at saturday evening at Helsinki (metropolitan area).

We didn’t got the ”Lucifer” heatwave here but we got the thunderstorm what was result of that European heatwave. Around Finland the storm did fallen trees (many of those fall on cars) and cut powers in many many houses. In Helsinki, among other things, it broke part of glasses of ”Sanomatalo” house on the city (on the first video) and at ”Iso Omena” (Big Apple) shopping centre, Espoo city, water came in (on the first video). Also the ”Slow festival” at Helsinki did break for a while because of that thunder.

In the part of Helsinki where we live it wasn’t so bad but some time in the evening there where lightning and thundering (all the time). The rain wasn’t too bad and it was over real quickly. Neither wind I didn’t feel when I went to grocery store. I was little bit scared of but I had to go there. Luckily it wasn’t as bad anymore when I left. Although I did read news with my phone on my way to the grocery store and there they did say people should stay/go inside. ”Nice” I was thinking. Well, I chose the shop according to the road there. I didn’t have to be long time outside and there is buildnings too (which gives shelter). I didn’t want to go that cheaper shop like I was planned to cause from there you have to walk through the open area.

These three pictures I took today on the way to my parents. These are taken near of their house. You can see that the storm where hard there. The bushes were quite suffered.

At countryside that would be more scary. I remember some times when we have been at our summer cottage and it came a thunder. We’ve been really scared with my mom, even my dad always said thunder doesn’t usually comes right up there it rather go round that house. Still everytime it was any harder it felt real bad!

Luckily anything ever happend! Even that old tree near the house have been saved from the thunders. If it have been hit by thunder it could have fell on the house.

Have a good new week!


Some more beautiful Chinese dance videos. I really love these and I would love to learn this dance! Maybe I should suggest for our team leader that we start to learn Chinese classical dance. That is so amazing! 

Specially I love the first ”Nipponia” dance, ”Thousand Hand Bodhisattva” and the last video: ”Jasmine Flower” dance (which is the same perform than the last post but with different costumes. I like these more).  If you don’t wanna watch those all, watch atleast these three (or two if you watched the last one in my last post)! 

Have a nice (rest of the) week!