The best scene of movie ”Up”. I watched this movie today second time and I cryed again on this starting scene.


This is one of the best animation movies I ever seen (as adult). It did won Oscar 2009 and no wonder why. That’s so touching and it’s not made only for children. The story is very good for adults too.

The movie is about 78-year old man (Edward) who makes her wife’s (Ellie) childhood wish true to go to the adventure to mountains (just before he was sent to nursing home). They developed that trip years together but Ellie dyes just before Edward finally gets the tickets to them. Edward meets a little boy who comes with him to the adventure and together they meet animals and make new friends. Edward becomes happier and stop being so bitter as he was to everybody.

I think Edward was just missing his wife too much. Also they couldn’t get children with Ellie so he didn’t have love in his life until he met his new friends and started to live again…

If you haven’t seen this movie I really recommend to watch it!


Last days I have been too tired to write. I haven’t slept well and just couldn’t do this post but here it finally comes…


One of us is gone again and have went to heavenly home…

We buried my partners grandmother 7.4. with family. (These were my third funeral in 14 months and I so wish I could see my family members and buddys for a chance at more joyful events.) No wonder, I have been thinking and scaring death so much lately which have naturally made me feel very bad. Still, I was so happy to see everybody. I was really happy to see also sister of my man who lives in London and came here for the funeral.

As usually, the funeral service was beautiful and touching. Everytime at funeral (this time also) I feel my mortality when I’m listening the speak of the priest. (I guess that’s what’s happening to most of us). Also two of those psalms we did sing together were my absolutely favorites. These touched my heart deeply! (Those psalms you can find in this post. 1. ”Päivä vain ja hetki kerrallansa” (Day and moment all at once). 2. ”Sua kohti herrani” (”Nearer My God to thee”).

When the funeral service was over, we went to my partners parents where was that traditional cake and coffee service. (There were also bun and candy at the table.) Eating is something which brings us together in every events, like that Saturday also…even I almost got overdose of sugar cause there were only sweet delicacys served. I would like to have also some salty snacks even the cake was super delicious! (That’s why I ate it too much.)

Even funeral is mostly sad event, there is one thing I like. I think it’s detergent that you can cry with your family members and loved ones without any shame. So often we don’t show out how we are truly and deeply feeling (atleast I don’t. It can be maybe some finnish thing, that we are shamed our negative feelings, I think). At funeral there is no reason to hide the sadness. You are all feeling the same sadness. It’s fine. It’s different situation…and after you cried at church, you can laugh at memorial…

Life goes on and I’ve realised we should take ”all free” our life as long as we still have time cause we don’t know when the time ends…


I recommend to read these lyrics…


Jari Sillanpää is finnish very popular artist who became famous at 1995 after winning classic ”tango king” title at annual ”Seinäjoen Tangomarkkinat” (Seinäjoki tango market) happening.

Sillanpää is great singer and performer (or maybe I should say was). He have (or atleast had) the charisma and he have always been very sympathetic. No wonder he got that big popularity, specially from women fans. It didn’t matter even he’s gay which I think everybody knew right away (even media didn’t talk about that).

Last year Sillanpää got first time busted with meth and now while ago it happend again when he came back at holiday from Thailand.

He was interviewed at Thursday on the talk show and his talk was mainly quite unclear and transmissioning to irrelevant details. That was odd and confusing interview (watch one short clip of that below where he starts to cry).

Now some of his gigs have been cancelled and though he said he have always done his job well and never performed intoxicated, some fans said that’s not true. Some said he have been unclear at his one gig last year. I don’t know anything about that but after seeing that interview I don’t doubt it.

It’s sad thing to see that someone so talented lost his grip of life and destroys his selves. I just wish he realise to get help soon but it didn’t sound like that. He just said at the interview: ”No one can help me”. So he’s not bottom enough to get help. He still clearly thinks he can choose weather he like to use or not. The only thing he was embarrassed was when he did drive car intoxicated (last autumn).


Otherwise using drugs he didn’t want to apologise (when it was asked) which was interesting choice even I do understand his point. He said he takes responsible for what he did and he don’t see that he’s done anything to anyone. It’s just he’s choice. Right, it surely is…but even if he’s not responsible for his fans, he should be responsible for his selves (like he kind of said) and do something.

I did just read that Sillanpää have also horton’s neuralgia disease which is even harder head ache disease than migraine. Also I have read that the death of his mother have been made him depressed. He said these are one of the reasons he started to use meth. He couldn’t drink because of he’s sickness so I think that’s why he chanced the alcohol to drugs. I do understand but I also hope he gets the help he really needs or this can be the end of his career.

Seinäjoki tango market happening at 1995. The final song: ”Eron hetki on kaunis” (Saying goodby is beautiful) and crowning of the ”tango King” and -”queen”. (Tango queen: Marita Taavitsainen have also succeed well.)