A beautiful May evening at home corners

I went for an evening walk last weekend. It was beautiful weather, and I wanted to smell the onset of summer. I didn’t even really remember what it feels like to breathe freely; decent fresh spring air. I have been wearing a mask for so long anywhere I go, although sometimes I have momentarily opened my mask from another loop, in a safe place. So I did now too when I was coming back home. I stopped to admire the beautiful sky. No one was nearby. I rubbed handsanitizer to my hands and opened my mask from the other side and the feeling was indescribably wonderful, now that all the scents of summer were already in the air. It was a really euphoric experience. I closed my eyes for a moment and enjoyed. The birds sang their songs. I could never have imagined that fresh air alone could feel so wonderful. Now that too is no longer taken for granted.

In reality, I was awakened by the ripple of conversation behind me. Some people were clearly coming my way. I quickly put my mask back on and left to home. People had appeared across the street too where there would have been another possible route home, so I straightened across the lawn, over a small fence to the yard area so as not to collide with anyone. (Today, I am even more afraid to bypass people because of the Indian virus variant and who knows when a new, even more contagious virus variant will come again)!

These little soothing moments are more important now than ever!

I just wish it will become more warmer weather (which would certainly also reduce the number of infections)…and…

I also wish everyone a wonderful and safe start to the summer!


Ok, the game is over and we have new winner of Eurovision Song Contest 2021 -after two years break-. The winner is Italy’s glam rock band: Måneskin.
Finland’s ranking was sixth. It’s our second best result in proportion to the number of participants, so this Contest went well! (Today, there are many more participating countries than before).

Neither of the songs were my personal favorites, but at least for the Finnish song I could expect audience voices. Rock always has its own fan base, and the band (Blind Channel) is quite popular abroad (more popular than in Finland) and as I mentioned yesterday the song (chorus) is really catchy. We got well votes from the audience but we also got moderate points from the jury.

Finland’s first and so far the only win in ESC history was in 2006.


My personal favorites were: Bulgaria, France, Austria (eliminated in the semifinals), Georgia (eliminated in the semifinals)… and also pretty nice catchy song was in Greece and in Cyprus (which sounded like Lady Gaga. Also singer looked a little bit like her.) Anyhow I didn’t like the idea of this song. I don’t know who would like to give herself to devil… 😱 Not very good message!

From the link below you can find the total results and listen all songs.


Congratulations on a good place, Blind Channel!

ESC 2021

In an hour, the exciting Eurovision final begins. After a year break, it has been nice to watch the classic European Song Contest again.

Finland made its way from Thursday’s semi-final to tonight’s finals. Since then this contagious earworm has been playing in my head. It is already time for the Finlands previous and only historical victory (2006), when Lord’s catchy rock song (”Hard Rock Hallelujah”) took us to victory, so I think it would be our turn to win again…(By the way, Lordi will perform in tonight’s final).

However, there are many really good songs in the competition, so it may be that this slightly Lord-like rock song isn’t going through this time

We have this saying in Finland after winning something: ”see you at the market place!” but this time if we really will win, pleace DON’T MEET IN THE MARKET, right! (Because of the Corona).


Where were you at the time? I like these videos where you can look to the past like it’s happening now. There, people still walk freely side by side, unaware of corona.

Time travel back to 1997

In June of the same year, this single was released:

My spouse played The Verve’s music one day, and it was like a time travel 24yrs. backwards. The Verve and this song was my favorite back then. I had birthdays a while ago and it is a good time to return to the youth years for a while. (By the way, watch how people collide with each other in the video. Who wants to collide to strangers anymore?)

1997 was a good year. I started high school back then. Even before I went to high school, I had decided to make friends there for myself because I didn’t really have good friends at that time (I had one friend outside my school). I had been pretty lonely for a while. However, I realized it was my own fault because I had been so withdrawn and passive because of my tenderness. At that school, it was too late to change things. Groups of friends had already been formed, and I would no longer have been included in them. That’s why I was glad to have a fresh start that high school offered me. There I confirmed my decision, and I made a lot of new friends, two of whom are still my good friends! In addition, I remember the great Stockholm trip with my annual rate.

The common joy of Thursday evenings for me and my mother was the twists and turns of the drama series ”Kotikatu”, which we watched regularly for many years. From the link below you can read more about the Kotikatu series and watch the theme of the program.


For a few years now, my life had brought content also my cheerleading hobby, where the summer match season had begun just before the release of the single ”Bitter Sweet Symphony”. Summer was always my favorite season, for training too, as match days were great moments. Unique experiences that cannot be experienced anywhere other than on the edge of the field. The feeling when you’ve been standing for two to three hours encouraging your team along with the audience, and your team is winning. Nothing wins it! (Except maybe the field performances of flow gymnastics!). By the way an American football team that I cheered won the championship that year!

That year also saw the premiere of the legendary film Titanic, which I went to watch with a friend. From the final scenes of the film, I remember how someone’s phone rang right in the middle of a tense event. She or he did get a few comments from the audience.

Death of princess Diana

From -97, I also vividly remember the death of Princess Diana, what then touched deeply. My mother and I were home when the TV was open and we heard there was an extra news broadcast coming. We waited excitedly for what had happened. As the news began, it became clear that Diana had died in a car accident.

When this album was released in September, I bought it right away. Here’s another beautiful hit from the album with great words. The song mentions aging. It really scares me too, year after year more. I just had my 41 birthdays, and every birthday today is just an inevitable reminder of how time passes, and I grow old. I was thinking about getting old by the time I bought the record, but still it felt like a very distant idea at the time. From something that only comes sometime in years to come. Now it has become much closer, and it has become a more concrete thing, (perhaps also because my father passed away and my mother has also become weaker / more fragile). Time is running so fast already that I don’t even dare to think about what’s ahead in 10 or 20 years.

Finnish, well-known journalist: Maria Veitola summed it up a few years ago: As long as your age is thirty something, you can still somehow think you are young. After it is forty something, you can’t anymore! Now I have experienced it first hand.


As many of you may remember: Manic Street Preachers’ album ”This Is My Truth Tell Me Yours” was released in August 1998. It went straight to number one on the British and Finnish album charts. I bought that cd myself too and it’s still great! Here is the link to the first track of the album: The Everlasting.

In 1998, I turned 18 and under Finnish law I had now reached the age of majority. As a birthday present, I received the first cell phone of my life: the Nokia 5110, which was new and great at the time. What could have been a better gift for a young woman on that age at the time…

In high school, I started second grade, and I became senior student. I also participated senior dances in the dress I borrowed from my good friend’s big sister, and I was involved in a cruise of the senior students.

The year 1998 also commemorates Monica Lewinski and the sensation over her relationship with Bill Clinton.

9.5. Eurovision Song Contest in 1998 was won by the Israeli legendary Dana International with its great song: Diva. Finland was represented by Edea with the song: Ava. I also thought this song was great, and for once the singer had a great voice, even though it didn’t succeed despite high expectations. Below is the link to my blog post of ”best eurovision songs” where you can listen for example the above-mentioned songs.

On May 30, 1998, the Kiasma Museum of Contemporary Art, which has become one of the landmarks in the center of Helsinki, was opened. I have not been a big fan of contemporary art in general, but I have to admit that there have been some pretty great exhibitions at Kiasma. (You can see a picture of it in the post I linked below).

In addition our American football team (which I cheered) won the championchip again!

My first cellphone.

I hope there are still many good years left, as long as this pandemic is over…

Good night!

FREDI (1942-2021)

Matti Kalevi Siitonen ”Fredi” was a popular Finnish entertainment artist and musician. He had his own recognizable singing voice and the songs he sang were largely delicate, very beautiful, and melodic songs. Many of those became beloved evergreens.

Fredi released 13 studio albums, several collections and singles, of which more than 177,000 copies have been sold beyond the gold record limit. Fredi represented Finland twice in the Eurovision Song Contest.

Fredi is also remembered for the singing and entertainment quartet: ”Kivikasvot” (stone faces). The same line-up also made a show entertainment program with the name: ”Kivikasvot show” which was really popular in the 70s.

Source: Wikipedia

This evergreen hardly needs demonstrations. A beautiful song. Specially I like these finnish lyrics. This song became even closer to me after my father left. (This Finnish text is slightly different from the original, and here the father’s passing is mentioned). The idea of ​​loneliness is the same but the perspective is different, at least more touching and close to me. It may also be that I internalize the message better when it is sung in Finnish, but at least I personally feel that there is more depth in this finnish version. Here’s my free translation.

Alone again (Naturally)

When my memories take over me, I see my whole childhood

How I was scared at night and under the blankets I pressed my head

I still remember when I quietly sobbed, every bump was an abomination

And I felt a great longing, a longing to come

In the evenings when I closed my eyes

I dream of something far away like going to another world

And only later I understood all that

Alone again, naturally

When father died I was left alone, every night I saw mother cries

Like a cold and exuding emptiness I felt next to me for a while

So in vain did I seek the word of consolation

Every sigh, every consolation was a guest at the time insignificant

Everyone ones have to give up a loved one, the wounds only remain

I understood all that in tears of grief

Alone again, naturally


Everyone is lonely here, I quietly bend to my destiny

I fall into its arms, so alone and depressed


I searched oblivion in vain from you

I saw everything slipping and I felt the mundane emptiness in my chest

And in my mind again, I saw my former life

And I knew that all of us loses once out all beauti

Only longing remains

I guess the purpose of life, I sharked here in vain

I missed the answer

When emotion warmest ends to tears

Alone again, naturally



One of Fred’s best-known songs: ”The Third Line back”, has also been an ever-beloved piece for me, too. By the way, The Third line is a street in Kallio, Helsinki.



Yet another factor has left us. Fredi joined the angel choir, where he can now sing with her daughter.

I made a post about his doughter in 2018 when she passed away. You can read it here:


A peaceful journey Fredi.